I sit alone beneath a vast gathering of stars in the nighttime sky
and I feel the loneliness of one.
I feel a soft gentle evening breeze whisper quietly by me, its
gentle movement unseen as it passes.
Yet I see its movement in the slow graceful swirl of the evening
mist as it rises above a pond in the pale light of a new moon.
I feel the warmth of the night air as it surrounds me and feel it
touch me.
These fragments of the night call to me and as I become aware of
their presence I realize I have no one to share their existance
with.
I hear the music of the night and its sounds fill my ears with the
melody of its life and the silence of its being.
I smell sweet fragances that drift to me hinting at the beauty
hidden in the darkness and I can only imagine their origin.
I see the fragile light of a lone firefly as it travels silently
through the night and I see myself.
I sit alone beneath a vast gathering of stars in the nighttime sky
and I try to shed this cloak of loneliness that weighs so heavily
upon me.
I search for the answers that will lead me out of the darkness that
holds me in its grasp.
The answers, I believe, that lie in the darkness, just beyond my
fingertips, just beyond my grasp, and I despair.
I look but my weary eyes cannot penetrate the blackness, cannot
find the answers in the illusions that surround me for they are
not real.
They torment me, distract me, lead me down endless paths past the
shadows of unremembered dreams.
With an almost imperceptible touch they play the strings of my mind
and their false promises dance before my conscienousness.
They circle me and my mind spins, I lose my way and there is no one
to guide me back to the reality I seek.
I am alone, there is no one to guide me, that to is an illusion,
a deception to confuse me.
If I am to survive I must look inside myself for the illusions that
haunt me draw on my weaknesses for their existance.
I am alone and in my solitude I must find the answers that will
lead me to the truth I seek for only through my own strength can
I find peace with myself.
